Few days back,somwhere i read a quote which said,"You are as young as your faith,as old as your doubt,as young as your self confidence,as old as your fear".Though it remained uncomprehended to me,nevertheless i liked it and kept it on my display board.
It was on one fine day ,15th Jan 2010, that its meaning eventually surfaced and led me to encounter its essence.When i came under the grip of various motivations and impressions and consequentially shed one of my biggest fears.
The day when IGNOU organised and participated in a blood donation camp held by Rotary Blood Bank.Students, teachers and office staff people came up for the cause inundatedly.But some with premonitions,some with apprehensions,some with enthusiasm and some just to sermonize the cause.As far as i was concerned, i was not even aware of the whole activity and whatever came to know,gleaned from my friends ,who were actually interesed in donating blood.I entered the venue without giving the second thought for any such participation.But i had something else in store which took me aback.The venue more than blood donation camp turned out to be a councelling hall for me, where everybody started convincing me to donate blood and uphold the special cause.The ignition point was one of my dear teachers whose councelling helped me only to conquer my basic dousing fear of Haemoglobin test.I went ahead with a strange confidence that i would get disqualified and my fear would able to get re-establised .The result did nothing more than providing spark to the remaining timber.It was the first time that i was not happy with having passed some test and becoming eligible for something.I felt that some monsters are ready to squeeze 250 ml of blood and i would get severly affected if I would donate my blood.Above all,i did'nt want to face that wierd pain which everyone seemed excited about.It was nothing but my fear which overpowered me .That day i realised how much reverence people pay to those who donate blood in any particular camp.For me it was the task full of misconceptions and apprehensions. And with my obvious reasons i did not want to remove those ,inspite of subsequent motivations and encouragements.Finally after half an hour,somehow i lost some strands of my doubt and put a halt over my racing thoughts.
It was an amazing experience which led me to realize my strengths and weaknesses.For anyone it would be an usual blood donation, but as a first time donor i conquered my fear and queer its pitch for ever!
